My mind begins to wonder
-----I often start to ponder
of an escape;
an exit sign
to this wonderful life of mine.
I hold the key
the door is closed
letting go is all I know
No difference comes from passing hours
I replay memories in my mind
Visiting what was once sublime
A state of mind that can't be displaced
I am here in my sacred place
My mind entranced by what once was
Ignorant of things to come
I long for the innocence I so easily discarded
for time dose not rewind
the choices I made can't be retraced
I am a victim of myself
and now reality is not my friend
From time to time
I like to vanish
somewhere in my imaginati
Your face is burned in my memory
associated with all that is wonderful
Trying to forget is harder then it seems
you meant far more to me then everything
and yet now, you are nothing
Increadibly ironic how life plays out
I stay awake and come to terms with what now is my fate
A state of denial overwhelms me.
I find it difficult to breath
I'm steadily drowning in a sea of you
reach your hand out and help me
for I belong to you.
someone you were
yet no one you are
hurt me with words
and leave me with scars
cut me down
and leave me to die
don't you know that you make me cry
Why dose it hurt so deep inside
a pain that's twisting into a bind
you came into my life
as a wonderful suprise
but left me standing alone and dry
you took my smile away
and made me feel down
now all I do is frown
HOW COULD SOMEONE HURT ME SO?
I Hate You, I Hate You Not by leonai-endo, literature
Literature
I Hate You, I Hate You Not
Love or Loathe???
I ponder deeply to myself--
Anger fills my insides--
Infuriating my heart.
A fire grows from my head to my toes.
Jealousy is...
Infecting me--
Like a deadly disease
I am cured--
By his smiling, goofy face.
How do I love thee?
I can count so many ways...
I have forgotten my anger...
Like a minuscule second lost in time.
YOU POISON ME...
It's not like you really liked me anyway
But I liked you no matter what you might say
So funny to think everything I've written
Was because you had me totally smitten
How fun to think I had gotten in the crowd
How special I was I would scream it loud
And then I saw your backs / then began the turn
One of the hardest lessons ever to learn
All the pain I felt
Inside I would melt
No matter what came
There's nothing to help
All the pain I feel
Inside it is real
No matter what comes
Learning how to deal
Once upon a time lived this girl that I loved
Fairy tale beginning crush was not enough
The greatest girl that I would have ever
apathetic pathetic disrespected hectic life quest in which i am in depth with
wreckless give a fuck less fight with
crest for honor longer never weak always stronger
like black cofee,
rockin thee oftenly and dropping thee science reliance loud but quiet high pitched voice matched with deep bass, 78 my boy,
i'm offbeat
sense of humor, spread quicker than rumors and kill more love than aids and cancer tumors, my blast similiar to a car crash doing a buck and a quarter, disorder higher than mortar shells when i rock bells like LL, need a beat just as well as cats fallin off worse than the girl from The Ring and a well. I been sat throug
someone you were
yet no one you are
hurt me with words
and leave me with scars
cut me down
and leave me to die
don't you know that you make me cry
Why dose it hurt so deep inside
a pain that's twisting into a bind
you came into my life
as a wonderful suprise
but left me standing alone and dry
you took my smile away
and made me feel down
now all I do is frown
HOW COULD SOMEONE HURT ME SO?
Current Residence: unfortunately michigan... Favourite genre of music: instrumental/ambient beats. hip-hop. jazz. house. world music. folkrock. triphop. emo. indie. oldies Favourite photographer: all photographers Favourite cartoon character: Stewie Griffen from Family Guy, AEON FLUX, Invader Zim, and "Spike" from Cowboy Bebop Personal Quote: Love all, trust a few. -Williame Shakespear
Favourite Visual Artist
life
Favourite Movies
Harry Potter. Requim for a Dream. Kids. Run Lola Run. Hook. Peter Pan. The Secretary.Gummo.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
ZERO 7. K-OS. 8.BLISS. Postal Service. Jazzanova. Common. Mars Volta. Jim Morrison. Beatles. RJD2.
Favourite Writers
Edgar Allen Poe and William Shakespear
Favourite Games
Mario Brothers 3
Favourite Gaming Platform
nintendo.
Other Interests
new york. art. life. writting. boys. skateboarding. drinking a 40oz. making fun of your mom.
In the event I should ever get excited about something, someone, anyone... stop me. Feelings are not my concern, they're for the disolusioned. Lessoned learned:: always trust your gut instincts, pause.rewind.start over.brush the dirt off ya shouldass.begin.
~good advice::
sleep always.
sleep all day.
sleep all the fucking time.
Where ever I am I always find myself looking out the window wishing I was somewhere else.
momma i dont know if those lit words are yours but their beautiful and u need to pu them on my other page...cuz one of them applies to steve so much. love you xoxo